it really has been a while since I have been on here.
I think it is time to get back in the swing of things...
today has been a day for me. I have been so emotional about everything. Crying every time I turn around. being pregnant this time sure is different. I don't remember being this emotional about things.
I just want to stay at home and not stress....sadly, that is not the case!
It has been so long since I have posted here. I have not forgotten about this, but just not taken the time to use it. I have had so much happen to me the past few years, I am a mixed bottle of emotions right now.
Most recently, I have had 3 deaths occur - my cousin, my step mother and now my uncle.
The true origin of the jack-o'-lantern is forever lost in the mists of time. All we have are stories and legends handed down over the years - undoubtably embellished and exagerrated with each successive generation. The most colorful (and maybe true?) account of the first jack-o'-lantern is found in an old Irish folk tale.
The central figure, Jack, of course, is a lazy but very shrewd character who uses a cross to trap the Devil. In one story, Jack tricks the Devil into climbing an apple tree. Once the Devil is in the tree, Jack quickly places crosses around the trunk (one version tells of Jack carving a cross into the bark) so the Devil couldn't get down.
Another tale describes Jack being chased by villagers that he had stolen from. He encounters the Devil in his escape, who tells Jack it is time for him to die and go to Hell for his wicked ways. However, Jack stalls his death by tempting the Devil. He proposes that the Devil turn himself into a coin (as the Devil could turn himself into any form he wanted) with which Jack would pay for the stolen goods. Then, when the coin/Devil disappeared, the Christian villagers would fight over who had stolen it. The Devil agreed to the plan, turned himself into a silver coin and jumped into Jack's wallet, only to find himself next to a small cross Jack had hidden there. Jack closed the wallet and the cross stripped the Devil of his powers, thus trapping him.
In both of these tales, Jack only lets the Devil go when he agrees to never take his soul. Time passed in Jack's life and he finally died. Since his life had been too sinful for him to go to Heaven and seeing as the Devil promised not to take his soul, he was also barred from Hell. Encountering the Devil once again, Jack lamented that he had nowhere to go and no light to guide him. The Devil mockingly tossed him an ember from the flames of Hell that would never burn out. Jack carved out a turnip, his favorite food, placed the ember inside and began endlessly wandering the Earth looking for a resting place. He became known as "Jack of the Lantern," or "Jack-o'-Lantern."
I think that part of my eye problem is due to a broken heart. Feeling as though someone has given me the "fuck you." Actually, I know that is part of my problem.
I stay beside be thru and thru and then at times I get the shit end of the stick and it really bothers me.
And this is how my my body is reacting to what is going on in my life.
How do I make right what is so wrong when no one will listen to the few words that I have to say?
I guess I can't because they have already made up their mind.
Everyone has made up their minds. This is not just one person in my life, but many in my life.
WHY? Why do people try to hold you down when they knew from the beginning what your intentions where? Could it be because they are jealous? Could it be because that is they way they are? I just don't understand human thought and actions sometimes.
Uggg, My ear is at it again. All swollen and hurts like a mothafocka! I don't know what is wrong with it. I have gone to my family doc about it, but they don't see any thing wrong...blah blah blah...well, heck, there is something wrong! It is all swollen and HURTS!
depressed 
-koun
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